As I start my journey with Kink~E Magazine, I will be sharing with everyone how and why I became interested in Latex, Rubber, PVC Vinyl clothing and the BSDM scene.
When I was younger, anytime I saw a woman wearing black jeans I admired and observed her. From black jeans came my admiration for leather PVC Vinyl latex pants. I loved the way they looked on people not just women
In high school, I was not popular and at times, was bullied, due to my weight issues. I would escape my “troubles” by wearing latex and mingling within the online fetish community.
My greater escape was getting home after school, and go online to browse for latex clothing, particularly black latex leggings and a black latex shirts. My first BDSM outfit was black latex leggings, a black latex shirt, a chest harness, red ball gag and a collar with black boots. I loved wearing this outfit, it made me feel submissive and I was treated as such.
When I was old enough to go out and explore the Fetish scene in person, I was immediately welcomed and never judged for who I was and what I enjoyed. Not only did I make friends quickly within the community, I was never insulted or left out. This led to my attraction of this scene even more. Visiting Dominatrixes getting spanked, teased and denied, nipple torture and mummified all while saying, “Yes Mistress” made me extremely happy.
I went out and purchased more latex and leggings, PVC boxers and leather jackets. When I wear them, not only do I love the feel of them against my skin, it gives me a surge of empowerment. I know I will never stop wearing them.
Every opportunity I have in between work or personal activities, I take the time to buy new outfits to wear and visiting lovely Dominatrixes who I enjoy seeing and honored to call them friends.
Being armed with the technology available to us within our society today, the world can still be open minded to many of things in life however if you really pay attention, they are only open-minded if it benefits them. Not everyone agrees BDSM is a lifestyle or even a safe lifestyle at that, even with the information available to them at any given notice.
….and no Fifty Shades is not the bible to Fetish or BDSM life. By far one of the biggest inaccuracies of our time.
We have many of those who will turn on the news and if they hear of any fetish related crimes, it brings a stigma to the community and those in the scene.
Even though I have experience bullying in school, people who have known me have seen the visible weight changes within in me, once they find I have a love for BDSM and Fetish, I experience a judgment still and today, I do not let it bother me. I will continue to flourish my relationships with my fetish friends who support me no matter what.
I have learned great pride within myself. I have made sacrifices within past relationships, but I have learned a variety of things about myself within making those sacrifices. There is nothing like being true to myself and loving the person that stands before me when I stare at my reflection in the mirror. It didn’t come overnight, it took time. But every day is a new day for me. A new day to explore and push my limits.
I am so grateful for Marabelle Blue and Kink~E Magazine. It was her magazine where I found her and got in touch with her. She made me feel good about myself and exploring my options of Fetish.
I am very excited to share my Fetish journey with you.
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